Philosophy
The explanation of our troubles is that cosmic beings are playing games with us. During his lifetime, each man plays cosmic chess against the Devil. God is playing with one set of rules, and the Devil with the other, exactly opposite set of rules. The shameful secret of God, the trick he used, because the truth would hurt too much, is that there is no good, or evil. Only truth. Do we go on clinging to the idea that God made us or realise that it lies within us to make God? By learning to manipulate the space-time continuum, man will become God, and will no longer exist in the physical universe as we know it. I have become a second generation cosmic being. I am conceived in the womb of nature, but in my own mind, in the womb of the universe. I was forced to admit that nature forces on a cosmic being the only sin they are capable of: the sin of concealment. It is a small sin for a man to commit, but it is a terrible sin for a cosmic being. I am what I am and I see the nature of my offence. I will only resign this game if you will agree that on the next occasion that this game is played, it will be played according to therules that are devised by my great God. It is finished. It is finished. It is the mercy.
11:15:00
It is the end of my game. Truth has been revealed and it will be done as my family requires me to do it.
11:20:40
There is no reason for harmful
–DONALD CROWHURST’S LOG ENDS HERE–
5 responses so far ↓
Justin Kolenc // March 22, 2008 at 12:56 pm |
Okay, I have to know…who is Donald Crowhurst?
notinparis // March 22, 2008 at 1:11 pm |
He was an amateur sailor who entered the Sunday Times Golden Globe Race. It was a race to single-handedly circumnavigate the globe. His boat was nowhere near good enough and neither were his sailing skills, but he entered to try and win the money because he was desperate. He’d borrowed money to get the boat and he had to finish the race or he’d have to pay it back (I think). Anyway, he had to finish the race.
Everything went wrong even before he reached Cape Horn and he decided just to keep sailing in circles and to radio in false coordinates. To the people on the shore, it even appeared that he was going to win. He slowly began to go mad and eventually he committed suicide while still on his voyage. What I posted was his final log entry. Obviously, he was pretty screwed up by then.
It appears to have been quite an interesting race, actually. A couple of people failed and the person who looked like he was going to win ended up unable to face the idea of going back and started sailing round the world again. Nutters, the lot of ‘em.
Mr. Todd // June 25, 2008 at 6:13 am |
Donald wasn’t insane. He was just a 35 year old man with a bunch of kids that never had a great adventure. He wanted to feel again. It really did not matter if he lost his life..because in his eyes his life was effectively over (i.e., the daily routine, sameness of his marraige, a spouse that did not understand him). He just said-”fuck it. I’m going”. However, if I’m correct he left alot of his supplies behind in order to reach the race deadline departure date. He just did’nt care. I believe if a man never really “tests” himself in his lifetime on some great adventure he will be emotional dead..a shell so to speak. “Most men lead lives of quiet desparation”…quess whose quote and you win the prize. Anyway..the result was tragic for his family.
ScottE // August 21, 2008 at 3:54 pm |
Mr.d Todd’s comments aren’t quite right. Near the end of the race the moral struggle was too much for him. If he quit the race, he’d lose his house and his company which he essentially mortgaged to get his boat done, as he had an agreement with his financier that if he quit the race, he’d have to pay everything back. If he sailed back to England and admitted he was faking his trip, he’d be disqualified – and thus the same outcome in addition to losing face. If he continued to fake it, his logs would have been scrutinized and he would have been found out – as instead of doing the nonstop circumnavigation, he was dawdling around in the Atlantic and brewed a scheme to wait for everyone else to come by, then ‘finish’ the race for the $5000 fastest-time purse. He kept 2 log books – one with his true locations, the second with fake positions that he was reporting. This dilemma and seemingly no way out drove him over the edge. He left his supplies and spares behind not on purpose, but because he just had to go to make the deadline and he was focusing on the wrong things – while he did not take tools, hardware, and other chandlery, he took boxes and boxes of electronic parts that were really of little use (he had some grand plans to build an analog ‘computer’ to handle some boat tasks, but he never really started on it). A tragedy for sure. Robin Knox-Johnston won the race, and donated the $5000 purse to the Crowhurst family. What’s left of the wreck of the Teignmoth Electron is still on Cayman Brac and can be found on Google Earth. Recommended reading: “The Strange Last Voyage of Donald Crowhurst”, “A Voyage For Madmen”. Also check out the movie “Deep Water” – reasonably well done.
Chukepo Ngoma // August 9, 2009 at 10:57 am |
Personally i feel Donald Crowhurst was somebody who wanted something much greater from life, which we all do , and he pulled out all stops to ensure his reveries became a reality.Ofcourse he was ill-equiped, deceived the public ; but if he threw in the towel,he’d t only be ridiculed and embarrased but his whole life woud have disintegrated. Th question to ask ourseleves is:” if YOU were in his shoes, what would you do?”
I do feel a lesson or two can be learn’t from his philosophy.